DIONEL!

I'VE MOVED!

2007-06-24T02:35:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!
i've moved on to xanga!
you can view my bloggings there!

add: www.xanga.com/desuzer

my first tamil blogging

2007-04-23T16:45:00.000-07:00

உன்னால் முடியும் தம்பி!
என்ற வாக்கியம் ஒரு மாணவனின் வாழ்க்கையை
மாற்ற முடியுமா?

chasing cars

2007-03-21T18:10:00.000-07:00

> Hero - Diana Ros

SYF DRAMA
oh boy do i even have to like start on it? its like a whole freaking mess! marc is out of SYF due to disciplinary case, no one to filll his role, feng yuan and me undersudy for all 3 roles, feng yuan then takes my role as tybalt, and i finally end up as romeo! now tell me how sucky can that be? huh? huh? like oh my goodness! SYF is like 5th april! and like how many sessions do we have left? -erm you dont actually have to count, its a metephor. and how am i suppose to fall in love with jaime? i mean of no offence to her la, like love needs time to grow! i can force it out! i mean even when in theatre or drama, love needs to grow! i cant be a "boom! there you go love!" thing. i mean of all the hopes to even get a gold? i think we dont even need to talk about getting a gold with honours! buttcrack!

loong time no post

2007-03-07T16:55:00.000-08:00

> wait a min - PCD
(heart accelerating, up beating, hiping hopping hit!)

I was rather on the verge to close down my blog as i merely blogged resently. To be exect, my last post was december 7th! What a i laugh i'm having! Its a whole new year and before you could say en-cy-clo-pe-dia, march is already here, and to give situation a boost, there are only 2 remaining school days left before we head on to march holidays. Should be excited? or is it going to fly off like any other passer by wind? - i rather not take any choice. Last week was a wonderful week, but this week has been thus far rather interesting i must say. Its like what they call, a cup full of wanting all good + 3 tablespoon of obstacles + 2 tablespoon of blessing + 2 tablespoon of happiness + 4 teaspoon of emosim + 1 tablespoon of sadness + 5 tablespoon of unvarifield/confused questions + 1 teaspoon of bad luck + 1 tablespoon of good luck, makes your week, woah astonishing.

"Its really not about whether you are right, or whether i get the last say, or whether you do everything or run everything, or i dont do anything, but basically what really matters is that you've got to realise that everyone plays a part and one doesn't just have to be a thorn among the "roses" to be underlined as the "undignified" one. If that has to be, biasness is basically what you call it. One is not there to pick on you, but there to guide you, viceversal. Maybe its redandon that i sepaking about this here? but maybe the intention is met?" haha!

* school is ending
* Romp II is coming
* time to reax
x my eye is swollen!
* Firhad is going on tuesday!
x my eye is so irritaing! dang!

vent

2006-12-07T22:31:00.000-08:00

vent is one thingin life i that i never wanted to touch due to many reasons,

of which one was basically due to its usage which i dismay

but even thenit comes to a point that the tension within is not possible

to hold and it just rises like the current, unstopable

but if the tides go high, why am i the fault?

if they wet more ground, why am i to blame?

is it in my will that i am able to control?

answer: NO!

and then?

sometimes its really amazing how even when fault i upon you,

you try work with it with ignorance,

why does it feel that no one gives it a rest?

besides it my wave, my ride

why involve in my ride when you don't know the cost?

that decisionwas not easy

and since when was i a celebrity that could be criticed upon,

"wow, i didn' realise my popularity increase"

"nothing is as astonishing as the amount of ignorance accumilated in life"

- henry adams,

sometimes the thought to kick his bottoms is not too far

its always easy to say a line and pass on

but when reality hits,

theres just no time to search and read,

maybe thats why they aren't alive! haha!

oh well!

i trust my heavenly papa!

and i know you have a way for me!

.trust.believe.faith.

mp4 outing 051206

2006-12-06T01:58:00.000-08:00

mp4 outing

went to eat alot

took alot of photos

tried to build the unfinished tower

but failed.
oh well.

lunch @ Gelare

such a beautiful scenary

merry-go-round

dinner @ new york new york

we made an England friend!

we also made friends with this nice manager of the restaurent!

cool sculpture @ explande

what a nice hongkong night scene look a like

staying alive?

i'm still a kid!

random?

emo!

happybirthdayjeremy!

2006-12-05T06:25:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday JEREMY!

thanks for being such a great friend man!

i would always rmb that you were the one who

brought me to God!

thats the most treasurable gift i am so grateful for.

i believe you are God's angel sent to me! haha

what so ever have a wicked BIRTHDAY!

rock on dude!

my best buddy JEREMY!

me and my kids(NAFC)

my nephew and niece! (pls exclude the guy behind!)

she was scared i would push her in the pool! haha

weijie's teeth is green! due to jeremy's cake! haha

met nat, weijie and elis for lunch

MR EDWIN CHUA WEIJIE grew taller!

Teenage Suicide

2006-12-04T23:34:00.000-08:00

I thought of dying
gazing into the black, seductive ice water
so glassy and so tranquil
I thought of dying
but in my place
Death's bony embrace
clutched listless children
gnawed by hunger;
prisoners on death row
detritus of their own childhoods;
poor shepherds grazing blunt-toothed animals
on landmined hillsides

I thought of dying,
to throw myself away
so much landfill
If it's no use to me
I could give it
I can holler with my lungs
at injustice
join hands in protest
at brutality
I realized that I had long been dead
but I could choose instead
to reawake
and be alive for them

the rain of life

2006-12-03T17:15:00.000-08:00

When it rains
The soft grey sky
Drifts to the ground
Brown rivulets
Trickle away
Trickle away
Washing sadness down
Weather vanes
Weep and turn
Weep and turn
Forgetting in the damp and grey
That by and by
The sun will shine
Sun will shine
By and by
The sun will shine.

021106

2006-11-02T23:58:00.000-08:00

>i don't care - Ricky Martin

natalie looks funny! haha

drama twits!

taoisim?

wake up rather early without reason
ordered macs sausage mcMuffin!
was rather dazing the morning
was suppose to go to work but
i didnt due to drama.

went to meet my mum before drama
she is seriously damn nice at times
then natalie called me sayin
"drama is @ 2pm not 3"
!@#$%^&*
me and nathaniel were late
we reached at like 2.45pm

drama was okay i guess
was abit lost and stale
guess its because i was MIA!
due to the exams la.
well only 10 ppl will be in SYF!
hope i get my chance
we did many interesting things
i learnt a few things though

after drama went to essential brew
its been ages since i gone there
but no good comments either
the waitress called us the
"chicken wing club ppl!"
wth! and the chicken wing
changed in taste i guess as it ******!
crapped and camwhored alot!
hahaha

left them and went to office
to clear afew stuff . argh!
tml theres work and i have
to like plan lesson! so boring!
BOOO! oh wells.
haha weijie and elis wants a job!
and now i am like their agent?
lol! hahaha. off i go!

impression

2006-11-01T23:58:00.001-08:00

"Stand By Me"

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgettable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together
When we're together

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love wont fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only believe
You make things right
Everytime after time

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

Stand by me
No more darling I want you by my side
I want you hear with me

baby it just shows
how much you mean to me
and i'll never let you go.
ilu;

facinating

2006-10-31T12:30:00.000-08:00

> stand by me > shayne ward
[this song is really precious]

its has been a very hard struggle for me for the past few
days, don't really know why but have been going through
a series of spiritual warfares and am trusting in
the lord to step out of it
and i know he will help me!

she is taking her O lvl this week
seriously due to work and
all i have not been spending alot of time
with her which really saddens my
heart to do so but i know she is a
STRONG BABE
and she'll do well in her Os.
and all the best the you O lvl takers!
to rachel and lanz especially! =)

and thanks to my dear pudding for all her
HELP!
i bet you thought i forgot right
haha.

nothing is astonishing
as the amount of ignorance
accumilated in a peron,
`Henry Adams

chinatown

2006-10-09T22:15:00.000-07:00

> Me & You - Cassie

chinatown
Went to chinatown with jeremy, erin and chulien today! haha. It was rather darn funny today! The girls actually wanted to eat Tim Sam, so we went to some so called high class restaurant! haha but i actually went all the way to china town to just drink soya bean and eat peanuts! chulien kept laughing at me! thanks ah! Cause i wont eat Tim Sams obviously! haha. But i did the ordering! i ordered many nice things accept for one damn shit thing. Some veggie thing. the waitress actually called it "Mr Choy's balls!" haha! No Kidding! haha! it was darn funny! after that we headed to the mrt. on the way we came across a shop which is irnically named "home of condoms" haha! there were like tonnes of sexual usage items! haha mand masturbaters! and woman vibraters! hahaha not forgetting Lepard patches! aka chulien's fave!

habourfront
we headed to vivo city later on. boy was it huge! it took us almost half an hour to find the cineplex! haha dAMN HUGH! with so many boutiques! yay shopping hit list! haha. me and chulien were just having lots of comedical fun! while jeremy and erin were..... hahahaha! lol! we went to watch "Scoop!" rather exhillerating! "a perfect man, a perfect story, a perfect murder!" hahaha its comedy! romance! and murder! out of point right? but it all came together someone! there was some terror card killer who was actually darn handsome from what chulien said! ahaha. play safe! but i think they sped tooo much money or somthing the movie ws splendid but the ending sucked! and sydney my man died! darn it! haha. anyway then after that wen to have Macs with chulien and trained home!
CHULIEN WORE SKIRT TODAY! woah! =)

reality

2006-10-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

> No Promises - Shayne Ward

[thats chicken wing club]
during lentern festival 2006

N Levels
i just finished my N lvls not long ago. been a rough rocky road all the way, but the Lord abundant blessing has always been upon me. a whole years bullshit is down to one week. the pressure sure was on. but i guess now theres nothing much left to do but o hold and practice strong faith in Jesus. Like he said "you rather believe your friends who think they know the answer, or me who knows truth?" i still believe in God for good results. amen!

Life
well its seriously a rocky road so far but i love it as everysingle step i take, i take it in the Lord will. Its really amazing to see how much i have grown in the LORD. He has certainly taugh me alot and i am till learning. Of cause all this is thanks to Jeremy of cause for making me remember that Jesus is always there for me. Its seriously a new experience and its rather rewarding. He is blessed me in many issues and i am tremendously Glad! -he is my way, my truth, and my life;

well been reflecting alot these few days. Many issues just kept me concern over and many made me realise reality. i just realise how many cliques i have just gotten myself into. 'DEH? SEVEN? CLIP 5? High13?' and it just gets going on. i just really realise how much i have isolated my self from others and just being so focused on just a clique. I face many consequences due to this and it just made to conclude to this - "it really depicts where i belong" where i belong is really a question mark '?' God has set us free and he has given us liberation but yet man choose to isolate himself and stay at darkness. Cliques are the most fun things trust me! we have the greates time. Just like my mp4! i love thme to bits! we always have great times. But i realise these guys are more then just a clique, to be honest we are a family. but the thing that keeps us on is that we often have gaps and own times when keeps us together still. just today morning someone asked me "isn't this clique important to you?" in my heart i just replied i'm tring to go far away from it. -liberation is a choice, don't jail yourself;

its been a rocking 39<3

i'm just loving it!

long time no post

2006-09-03T22:12:00.000-07:00

> when you believe - Mariah Carrie& Whitney Husten

its been quite a while since i blogged here! and hey i'm back! amen! hahaha
its been a pretty wild ride and tough days as exams head near
but boy am i loving it! hahahah
those pictures werer just recent mugging days.
i'll blog soon!

tml Nlvl Tamil!
-doing it by Faith!-
-Praise God!-

scan the days

2006-07-15T22:30:00.000-07:00

> welcome to my life - simple plan

wednesday
mdm lim was absent today. so nobody satyed back for art. was a tamil class day so pretty boring. did a test at tamil class. i was like so sleepy!

thursday
I'VE GOT MY N80!
Photo taking today! pretty cool. i got demoted to the second row middle. abit funny! PE lessons were fun today. haha. well i guess i am stuck in the middle in this competition. lets just pay for fun yeahh. chemistry was fun. we played with the balls again. "vic your balls are running away!" haha. physics remidial was fun! drama photo taking was fun - i've learn to ease down on that;

Friday
Happy Birthday my cute niece!
free period ran fast! chemistry was fun with balls again! "vic you're loosing your balls!" english was a bore! Humanities was cool. we watched some vaulgar movie! "eeww farkqweh!" haha. after school went to catch pirates of the caribbean. pretty cool movie. but the ending seems unfinished.

i felt so guilty today. really no offence but guys i think its really our fault. she treats us like her kids and we don't give a damn. imagine her almost tearing over the phone! she said is only hoping on blah blah and a blah (don't want to say the names) for the A1s. well i guess at least for her we should really ace our N lvl!

BOO!

2006-07-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

> ridin' dirty - chamillionaire

i was in school darn early again! cause i met abel and huishi early! he and his "peisu mike!" haha. carmelle made a huge statement by saying "all boys are bustards! you only hurt the girls feelings!" haha well i dont really blame her. i guess there are some who play with girl's heart. chapel was great. some youth pastor came. something i can really learn from. (godididraisemyhandinmahheart!) sorry! lessons were pretty okay. surprise maths test. crappy fenny again during history! haha. english was okay too. after school went to do art. art is damn fun now adays! yay! then went to JP with nathaniel and dehua. nat changed his wallet. dehua wanted to buy a GUNDAM? and boy is her frikleminded! rawr! ate subway for dinner. and cabbed home. i'm getting my N80 on thursday evening! finally! thanks you GOD! and MUM!

this 'special BAG' has been sitting in my room for months and i am not the owner! its for someone? haha but i just haven't found the right time to hand it over. as the arrival of the back came inbetween bad atmosphere. so it has gone through struggles to get to its owner but till now mission failed. but whenever the eyes get caught by it, questions start to shoot out. the problems comes when i cant answer them. like i said. the heart is still the same. maybe its time to be less oblivious? "i still.." ;

dude, i didn't want to ask you anything today as i just left it to you to open up. i think i know whats going on. well its was good to see you happy today! haha DANDUNG BOY SMILED! hahaha. lol thats the way man. kick off your day with a smile. and dont worry about last min pangseh'ers. there are many in life! haha.

i've got to hit my books liao. must get to pace this week. and start chionging liao! i'm starting to love art! i just love crossing out my wishlists! yay!

//"i still.."

review mirror

2006-07-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

> For you i will - Teddy Geiger

Mrs CHNG leaves in 5hrs!
MRS CHNG! have a safe trip yeah! really going to miss you! take care!

today i woke up early and went to school early. as usual moody morning. rushed my maths although she never checked but at least i tried. my new DM is a poor announcer! maths was okay although it was dry. i was actually doing my work. chemistry was productive! i think sitting infront helped me alot! thanks ms thio? recess was okay. art was productive too! natalie was going crazy! haha but today art was fun. although something happened later. LS was boring. no comments! met huishi and chulien for dinner. DeliFrance? haha yeah but yet huishi kept complaining! took a bus home.

reflections/
its really funny how just one event can cause an erase of someone. hmm. little did i know that the thought and treasuring over someone was that low that that someone could be erased? i know i have right to say must or not but i guess when the eyes do catch the fact, it does witness a huge sense of tension that breaks out to a water fall. the heart is still the same and the thought is still clear its only a matter of fact that you still dont get the picture.

fenny! relax dear honey! i know you were sad and stuff. but yeah. you are really good. and comparing to others you are really fast and efficient too. thats why she kind of let you independently. dont take it to heart yeah? it only proved how good you are! so smile and a BIG BIG SMILE!

and boy do i think you would think i forgot you! dude i would never! i know you have been down the whole day. and i know there is something going on in you man. but yeah. it really hurts that i cant be much of a help. but dude i really hope you get better. as i feel very wierd to see you like this. i guess it kinda hurts. (kaaranum naana?) thats in my heart. well hope to see you happy again! and dude rmb i am here! =)

lastly. i told char just now how i missed someone's crackingself and the funny times we had. haha. lol you are still the best when it comes fun and laughter and jokes! haha but where you are now is the safe distance. but it can be broken!?!?!?!

// i<3you;

church day

2006-07-09T21:50:00.000-07:00

> Lord we delight in your name - Hill Songs

woke up early to prepare for sundays school. as i slept the last night after talking with nathaniel. well dad drove us to church. todays service was good. i was really blessed. i poured out many things sang my heart out to God. yeahh. i guess its nothing much but i know the Lord hears. today i was teaching the kids. it was kinda hard as their attention spent was low. but yet it was really fun. being in the sundays school really makes time fly. mingled around after church and dad drove us back home.

went home moody. no idea why. i went to sleep. then i woke up and watch tv. then went to sleep again. then i was bored so i went out. went to meet someone and went to JP. i know i'm nuts! haha. went deposit something! YAY! and went to check out my N80! and boy is it sexy! haha. its sells at $989. after trade in its at $889. what abomb yet i'm gooing to buy! thanks to mummy! i was in JP at 8pm and Vic was there at 9pm but we did not meet. lol. came home with KFC but i was not hungry. so i ate because i was bored? lol! going to bed early.

// well its still an 'i do!' hahaha! =)

art day

2006-07-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

> here with out you - 3 doors down

woke up late today to rushed from home to school in a cab. but actually the uncle drove fast that i became early! hahaha. well painted my droplet number one today finish. good but slow accomplishment. had loads of fun too. scorpion bought us chocolate waffles. mdm lim's usual pet talks. sec 4NA's attendace today was damn good! all came except faris!. i guess because i said mdm lim will complain to the principle! but actually she is out of town! was listening to derricks indian songs! natalie painted a sports bra outline on eunice chan! haha so funny! paint fight again!

after art went FMPS for the MOE shit thing. but the art exibhition was good! missed the primary school good food! the aunty remembers me! bought 2 ice cream from Mrs Habeeb! my Martin House teacher! haha. later went home with eunice and natalie. nat was going town to meet charmaine. enunice and me went to JP to watch movie. scary movie 4! but she was underage? haha so the damn aunty said NO! hahaha so we went home.

at night went for a wedding. then i went to town at 12 am in the mornign with my cousins! elder ones la. we went to to club cum Pub - Liquid Room. was pretty okay. had a few drinks. i manage to damn at the dance floor. was okay. came back home at 2.30am. now talking to shihan waiting for the match! well i want to say i love you! ( not reffering to shihan!)

3rd & 4th placing

2006-07-07T01:33:00.000-07:00

I AM AWAKE AT THIS UNGAWDLY HOUR!
poooooo!!
a few hours before the world cuup 3rd and 4th placing
Germany vs Portugal
although i don't support any
all the way GERMANY! (although i cursed you!)
muahahahahahahah!

the hair and its cuts?

2006-07-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

> rise and fall - craig david

what a title to give my post eh! haha well today was normal day. nothing much of a huha! wenhao laffyette and me got a hair cut. laffyette's was okay la. better then usual. at least there was slight straight hair that was visible! me and wenhao went to our usual shop! haha. he was really on and shaved bald with tiny hair left! he looks kind of like a small baby! haha. i've got not much of a change. something like faris hair but with adjustments. jeremy and abel kept saying it was damn cool! haha went home and dyed my hair black brown but no difference!

today 4D led the chapel. i guess they al really put in alot of effort. although the technical errors pulled them down. well done Norman! well my N level oral examination is tomorrow. not really nervous but do feel the slight heat! was suppose to go eat with jeremy in swensons but had tution! sorry dude! sorry to huishi and chulien too! haha.

random
and its still a i do, i hear 'shes expecting you' but mind runs over it as a lie but yet heart stands strong

snaps!

we were dancing high school musical that day!

youth day

2006-07-03T22:37:00.000-07:00

> buttons -PCD

happy youthday to all youths!
(like me!)

haha. met dehua and wenhao in the morning at bugis. wen hao and me bought a zinc bag each. wenhao bought a brown leather one and i bought a zinc leather plastic. dehua on the other hand bought a zinc wallet. was a funny thing that he bought a wallet from there. ate long john silver. met nathenial and cabbed down to town.

at town met glenn, vic and tian hang. wen to long john silver again as glenn was hungry. then went to apple centre. i saw jamie yeo AGAIN! haha. the guys went to nike boothic as i went to meet jeremy and erin. then we went to book tickets for superman returns. saw many fairsian from all levels! haha.

later we all went to kpool and play pool! (abit obvious!) but i was not feeling well dang so i did not play. while the guys were playing me erin and tian hang went to tcc to dine. i had a choco mint frappo and a dark devotion while erin and tian hand had some strawberry thing that tasted like antibiotics! haha. tian hang was damn funny! he was like "can i take the whole mug of sugar home!" hahaha.

erin and tainhang went up to kpool. i went down to meet fenny huishi and chulien. man the elevators at cine is darn slow! hahaha. high five fenny and me were in birkenstocks! haha. huishi got her power chain redone! haha we went to get some snacks for the movie and went in. the movie was great. some said boring but really an inspirational movie. dang i actually heard a couple kissing behind me during the movie! haha. in the movie superman actually will have a fake death. it was cold and i got a cold so i sniffed and huishi thought i was crying! haha and said "superman die, DIONEL CRY!" haha.

after the movie went to have dinner at swensons. nathaniel left with kevin ban! (ban got sore throat!) haha. there were like 11 of us so we had to wait long for our seats. i called the doorman robeto carlos! haha and he was darn happy la! hahaha. but we had a fun time waiting as we were like talking crap and all! haha. finally got to seat down! but we were rushing through the food as it was getting late! finally cabbed home with huishi chulien and vic. (fenny cabbed home alone as dehua pangseh!) haha well i had fun today! thanks guys!

<3

2006-07-02T21:35:00.000-07:00

i love you, BEBAYE!

Yang Chen Ling @ Bugis

2006-06-03T23:55:00.000-07:00

> Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield

AI MEI is in town! haha NO! its yang chen ling. ai mei is her song. but i kept calling her ai mei! haha. we to see her at the autograph session at Bugis with vic, chulien and huishi. haha. we were there supricingly early. at that time there was only 2 rows. so Vic said "aiya she not popular la!" haha. so we went to eat lunch at Pasta Mania! i used to love to dine there. haha. then we went walking. took neoprint out of the blues. haha. then walk around aimlessly. haha. then when we came out the whole damn ground floor was crowded! we could barely see anything. so we sat at starbacks ( next to the stage) and we waiting for the people to scream(sign that tells you the star is here) haha.

cabbed down to esplanade. ate chocolate coated strawberries and marshmellos! yum! then went down to the river side. on the way we saw a guy painting on the floor!

seems like what mdm lim showed us in class!

thats not a real drain! its drawn! FTW YO!

so we walked tothe river side and sat there. i always loved nice sea view and relaxing sky lines! haha but i guess i was the only one. haha huishi wanted to go Kbox. Chulien wanted to eat! haha and vic was bored! darn! haha

if you look closely, theres anextra head popping out at the top! WTH!

VDHC! aka the production (s)crew! haha

after that went walking aimlessly again. then we came to this tunnel and we did our production! hahaha. really funny one. since we came out to watch yang chen ling we performed her song!

Huishi la who else! she was sad that vic was bored to do the video! =(

cabbed home and the rest went for dinner at JP. thank for another great day guys! LOVE!

sha la la la

2006-06-02T17:03:00.000-07:00

> Ai Mei - Yang Chen Ling

went to school in dad's car for physics as it rained! physics was okay then usual. at least productive! and chulien kept smelling me as she said i smelt like Dove soap. haha. the new snack vanding machine in school is dumb! as i think within one day it would be drained as the inter lock hoops are not close enough! so if you banged hard enough, you might just get an extra treat! buy 1 get 1 free? haha.

today is a special day for 2 of my unforgetables (said in previous post) haha. i wish and sent my best regards to the both of you for the special ouccation today! (wait is it today? i hope!) thanks for all you two have done for me. am really grateful and thankful! have a great day!

random
i'll take the lighter path. its going to be tough to contruct the tower again but i'll go that extra mile to do it. He has the way, the paths are ready and i'll go by his way - slow and steady, wins the race!

Ms Goh is still a KID!

the unforgetable

2006-06-01T21:20:00.000-07:00

> breakaway - kelly clarkson

"Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I love

I'll take a risk

Take a chance Make a change

And breakaway"

you guys are someone great to me. you broke out the the shadows and brought me back to light. you're a big un forgetable one!

my reflection

2006-05-31T22:30:00.000-07:00

> if you're not the one - Daniel Beddingfield

"If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call

If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings

But I know you're here with me now

We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?"

sometimes there is a say "sometimes the musics speaks you" and i guess while reflecting on my self on a certain issue, this song really impacted me. i dont know where i'm headin with this but i'm not going to entertain such thoughts and i know my lord have something more great for me - but who says a man cant love?

mp4 outing!

2006-05-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

> pump it - black eyed peas

today rawked my ass off!
mp4 finally went out! but the funny thing was dress code though! haha lanz and i were in formal while the huishi and rachel were in school related! haha but that made a commesion though. as many became anti social! hahaha. but it wore off soon. watched x men 3 and it rocked my ass up side left right front back! woah! i think its a movie worth a full $20. just my opinion though! and we kept going the the movie toilet often especially me! and a guy actually came in when i was in asking is this a double cubical? silly me for not locking the door! haha.

took a few pictures

our new poster? thats what huishi said!

another piece of my boredom pics! - but its turned out great!
i should get bored often! ahaha

we did alot of awsome stuff. but i'll keep it a secret since its our special day! sorry to be sellfish! =p haha! mostly got to talk chat and enjoy ourselfs! i really love you guys! thanks for another super duper day yeahh! you guys will always have a special place in my heart! hahaha you rawk! ahahaha. and we're the happy family! marmee huishi has 3 kids! ahha!

karma

2006-05-29T19:55:00.000-07:00

> karma - Alicia keys

its been hitting my attention that tissue paper has become a big association with self analyzing! i mean why not? it does reflect humans in an unhygiene manner. i mean clinex is used for a certain purpose i presume. its natural human nature that one rather have something fresher and new then to keep using the same old one. like how hitler kept moving from people after people, using them and killing them when drenched. its not likely a visible sign that its been used, but it holds great weightage when done - just a personal opinion.

do you believe in karma? 'what goes around, comes around! what goes up, must come down!" its something that will keep repeating in life. just like a boomarang, when thrown in one direction, it does swirl back to you. (unless you are a lousy thrower!) maybe its time to open the eyes wider and really snap back to reality, because if you don't, you got to watch out for the boomarang named "karma!"

up dating

2006-05-26T18:25:00.000-07:00

> angel - shaggy

its been long since i last updated! poof! haha. but i motivated myself to post again. woah its the second day of the school holidays! and boy am i bored! starting to do my english homework. theres freaking alot la. but PERSERVERANCE!

and i changed my blogskin again. i am a picky idiot i know! (sorry char!) haha. but yeah. i think i'll stick to this skin till i make something good or find something good. but what the heck i like this skin though! hahaha.

the trainers?

totally random!

those pics were some i took in the past few days. its been a pretty rough journey. but the lord has been clessing my path all the while. it can be said as all the trust is gone and sercurity is a problem. but the "lord said this, if you bother so much about sercurity on someone to you, watch your sercurity level as ones path ain't right either" well its just a myth i guess. the line is at the end of the day when God asks you what you have dont is right, - its better to have a good answer now.

random
so excited about tuesday! mp4 gathering at town! hahah! (mengmeng.shishi.tingting.nelnel) you guys rock! its gonna me a recalling or our sec 2 and sec 3 memories! hahaha!! =)

"playing witha girl's heart, is as good as robbing" - Robert Stonel

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2006-05-15T22:26:00.000-07:00

".. the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me. Cause the truth in your eyes, saying you'll never leave me. The touch of your hand, says you'll catch me, where ever i fall - you say it best when you say nothing at all .."

today was a normal fun day. collected my results. pretty fine. did well for art though and i managed to get 2 marks from mdm lim! ahah she rocks! later wenet town with rajesh fenny and charlene! half way rajesh went home cause his mum scolded him for pierceing his ears!

i bought my crumpler! - and someone's is sitting at home;

i bought a ripcurl wallet too! - curtiously shoosen by fenny and charlene!

we had a lunch cum dinner and BILLY BOMBERS!
the waiters there were freaking gay! i think it was a gay night or something! gross! haha.
trained home with char, abel, shi han ad syakir!

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2006-05-14T16:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday RACHEL MENG!

God's story to a young child

" young minds hold great imaginations, some even beyond believe, and that is what which shows the child-like. however your thought fall inpure when it leaves my holy path and as a result holds unpleasant deeds. taking the reverse path and hopping on to the mine, will lead you the right way, but continueing when known holds consequences - remember, no chain of thoughts is bigger than me.. "

that was what i taught in children's service and Happy Mother's day to all mummies! haha. i went to town and ordered my crumpler! whee! tml should be coming again with fenny and charlene to buy my wallet! its spending time! - and someones bag is just sitting at home;

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2006-05-13T23:55:00.000-07:00

a page from the diary of Andrew Makundi:

" ... calculations conquered my life and my every move is noticed. why cant a man just live on earth simply? they say when one loves another it is how affactionate the other is to him. but why the oddness in my journey? as she hates my more day by day, my emtions for her rise like the rising tide. is thou for real? - only time speaks the truth"

Today i gave my mum her mother's day gift. brought her to my scene at wisma to get her hair done. she rebonded her hair and highlighted it. but it was a bom though! the total price for hair treatment, rebonding, cutting and highlighting was $528! woah! big hole in my pocket! but nvm!

while mum had her hair done, i met fenny and aileen and we went shopping! haha. me and aileen owe fenny her birkenstocks. but when we went there fenny did not want to buy. she said "dont suit me! dont want!!" haha and fenny is a PI-DO-FILE! she kept touching young kids! haha. then she went around looking for what she wanted from us. haha

thats her playing around!

the question

2006-05-12T10:00:00.000-07:00

a conversation between soloman and david:

soloman: well, i've said what i have to..
david: yes you have, just be calm and trust the lord..
solomon: yeah, for now thats all i have..
david: my mate, but there is something..
soloman: yes my soulmate?
david: placing me in your situation, i would have just blown my calmness and would have blust!
soloman: it was just unclear atmosphere, i know i was in anger, but how could one vend his anger on his truely loved one? even then - i still love her;

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2006-05-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

> reason - hoobastank

well i woke up pretty early today. haha till i started waking up ppl la! haha. anyway i went to meet able as usual in the morning. although something was missing. haha. then able told me about his mum scolding him and stuff! that poor guy! broke his specs la! and what a time to right? with the mid year exams around the corner!

chapel was funny la! hahaha!

hahah! thats fenny and rajesh!

haha! i used my phone during chapel! oops! haha i hope ms ng don't see ah! haha. but really chapel was fun. not the person leading of cause. that whoever was really boring. even the teachers were bored and some were yawning and almost falling asleep! hahaha. i will be quiet! hahaha. fenny and rajesh were making fun of the songs. laffyette, jeremy and tian hang were busy bullying people! hahaha super funny ah! hahaha. i was laughing like wth! hahaha.

today lessons were pretty ok la. not too bad or anything. hahaha. i found them absorbable. but i felt so cheated though. hahaha. i rushed through my english and chem when they say bring tml. argh!!! hahahaha.

after school, chatted with jeremy for a while then off i went with rajesh and stefanie. she went home. i followed rajesh to city hall, HMV to buy his wierd named cd. haha. and on the way my dear friend started talking to me matured again. really sometimes even though rajesh is playful, the words coming out of his mouth are things to note! he adviced me alot - thanks once again dude! hahaha. later ate subway! yummy meatballs! hahaha. then trained home!

i have the following tests on FRIDAY!

combine science!

english!!

and TAMIL!!! oh gawd!!

not that i have a lot of time to do this. but i am just taking a break yeah! hahaha. but so many papers la! i think i am goona be trapped in a room for a loong long time! ahhh!!! come to think of it...

hahah ironically i had this picture! how cool can that be? but dont worry i dont die of self obsession! hahaha. but this pic is really drama mama! hahahaha!

may day!

2006-05-01T22:30:00.000-07:00

> Sugar Sugar - Frankie J

happy may day all! haha. although it is only for working adults! haha. anyway today was my cell member's beptism. haha. it was at her uncle's swimming pool. so yeahh. she was pretty scared. i mean who won't be right? but yeahh she has gone through it. but it took too long that i missed the NAFC's soccer training - sorry jeremy!

later in the aftnoon, my niece and aunt came over to my house. i missed my cute little niece. she is super cute la! ahhh! so adorable. i'm a pidofile! hahaha. if thats hows you spell it! she was so hyper la! hahaha. super duper hyper. she kept running around from here and there. and she ate sweets like sweet monster! hahaha. later on to stop her from irritating my aunt from eating dinner, i brought her into the room and did a makeover for her! haha

haha thats her! she's got make up on! haha. and she is only 1 years old! haha and she got her hair done too. then she acted like some ms universe or something! hahaha!

nice sinday!

2006-04-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

> Jesus take the wheel - Carrie Underwood

its a sunday! haha. yay tml theres no school! haha. well today's service really caught and mend my heard well. i just felt god was talking to me this whole week. (like i told jeremy! he is holy!) haha. from jeremy to rajesh and from a speaker from USA. really God thanks for all your word! well every sunday i have to take holy communion. to take it, my heart has to be clean, i should forgive all, no evil thinkings should remain and no grudges. so i prayed to GOD, stating all thierd names one by one, telling the problems and forgiving them. a total of 5 ppl. fenny is not in there though! haha. my heart holds nothing. whee!!

later in the evening, mom, sis and i went shopping cloths for my sister for her graduation night. hahaha. but she is not getting graduated lol. hers is next year. haha. damn sometimes i hate shopping. from shop to shop. argh!!. but i loved dinner. i had pizza! haha.

i had all these and more! haha i actually ate like a pig! haha

mum ordered this -tooty fruity! hahaha. and within 5 mins..

its ended like this! haha cause i finished it! i'm a pig thank you! hahaha

woah and that day was cool la. only missed a thing. i forgot to order my spectacles and contact lenses. darn it! i need them for MYE (mid year exams!) haha. nvm i have GOD! whee! haha and jeremy booked some soccer field for the guys. haha sounds fun though but i need to find my way there. haha. and my mothers a BIG SPENDER too! hahaha!

war resolution

2006-04-29T13:50:00.000-07:00

> who am i - casting crowns

well, i did do a mistake and i respect nat for telling me straight. sorry nat. it was just that during that situation, it felt like you were saying me. sorry/-

well today afternoon, i came back home with rajesh after my oral. i mean this yr oral was super funny. for me i guess. as my teacher was mr ezal! he was super funny and making me laugh with all his jokes as stuff. he totally made me confident la. haha. he ask me what type of fashion you hate the most. so i said i really dislike the gothic way of dressing and for basic reasons is just not appealing as it is totally dull and moody. and he said "so you dont like me la? " haha because he was wearing a black t-shirt! super funny la! haha. yeah.

well my aftnoon was something i liked. before that, i was going home with rajesh. but we took the wrong bus(14) so we went queensway to walk walk. he forced me to pierce my ear today as i wanted to but i had no gutts. so i said during june la. haha. well later when i went home. it was just more of a relfective noon. i mean i was wondering why i was at home after oral so early? so yeah. reflected alot. mostly about the happenings this week. come to think of stuff. i felt there were 2 angels, God sent to comfort me this week. actually alot la. but 2 specific ones. first one was jeremy la. haha. i mean he might be silent and jovial, but really what he told me that day made a strong impact on me and made me realise a few things - dude you're someone special! thanks man! second one was not expected at all. our dear rajesh! haha. i was shocked when he talked to me man. as in a councilling way - dude! i totally get your point.

just some memories of those rocking times - ~~if only things were the same~~

well had a good funny chat with weidong! (when ever i type his name i kept typing someone esle's name at the ending!) he is my brother man! haahah. well he shared many things la. it made his day bad - well dude just fight through! haha. i said the same thing to nat. its actually a strong line by renee chua! thanks marmee!

"loved a faker, hate a loser" - something that poped out before i finish my reflections =/

war!!!

2006-04-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

> clocks - coldplay

seriously what a week it has been? not a good start, not a good flow, not a good end. and the song clocks really says it all. just when i thought its fenny's week, and its gonna be a hyper week, it just has been a terrible 5 days.

and so you guys came with issue of not ebing able to trust me. and came out with four beautiful reason. some love issue, jeremy's personal life, pure chemistry and twin. and if i have to reepat this again. i will. all this reasons just don't back fire me. i gave exact answers to the reasons. if they hurt you in any manner please come to me personally. this is utter childish.

to say it. its actually 3 down, 2 more to go. i mean after my explanation this just shows you how it could have not even be built up if it was varified with me. wounds scars and scabs? my friend if you want to talk about healing from betrayal its the other way around. imagine how i felt when i was just blamed for all when actually it was not my fault. face it you being in my position for one day will just blow and like said cut your self. but i went through it for 4 freaking days.

when thinking whether matters are over, sometimes guilt comes in presense i agree. but my friend you are my most trusted buddy. you know my sunshine and my dark skies. it really hurts of all the people you have to be one of them. not be certain i am never pissed with you, as i can never be as i truely........

come to think f it i don't see where you fit in the picture. my dear buddy. its a matter you heard from others of what i said. so if you have quaries, you should have approached me and not be like you know what and talk behind my back. and if you think i could be so cruel to mouth bad about you, then my effort done for the last 6 months for you was worthless. seriously if you think about it, its not even a problem!

well i seriously dont wanna lose a best friend like you especially fenny and i'm glad you know the truth and now you trust me. how nice if all knew the truth from start. well i guess nothing in life goes fair. well i end with this. god knows all. seriously. and i say with him witnessing. i have nothing to hide. all has been said. and i said the truth. yes truth sometimes is bitter. but you got to take it in for what has occured.
remember....

"war does not state who is right or wrong, is just shows who is left.."
my friends see whats left, PERIOD/-

happy birthday fenny!

2006-04-24T21:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FENNY DARLING!

~~my heart has it, but my mouth hesitates~~

confusion

you;

crush

45 days

lost

gone

fiction?

~~i dont wanna dissapoint~~

~~i dont want a fairytale~~

~~but its just hard to keep it~~

~~the same game?~~

~~dejavu?~~

~~PERIOD/-~~

serious

2006-04-17T19:42:00.000-07:00

> Photograph - Nickleback

seriously. in life we face many problems but we aften use different medium to solve it when god give us a easier method. to use that method is losing of face to us, lost?, no cool. but actually it solves the problem so much more faster. but no we have to take it the harder way. i am not addressing anyone direct. actually a group to be specific. in life we should gain friendship and not lose it. we should gather and not get rid. but you also play a part. make sure your inner man in clean. i cant just be helping you when you make things worst for you! dude seriously you got to undersatdn a team is 1. u cant expect to outshine in that group. or else it will be. to. we can all sparkle and we shine as one. being scolded the f word, C word, K word, is not an easy acceptance. but your not doing anything to stop them either. instead getting things worst. seriously you dont need me, a brigde, but i'm just a connection to both ends. just dont take the bridge for granted. and guy sriously watch what you say. as even though action specks louder than words, the sacr in the heard it harder remove. may god/s blessing be upon you..

sorry this is just something randon! =)

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2006-04-15T23:24:00.000-07:00

> hey you - luo zhi xiang

man i love that song aye! hey you! hahaha. i accompanied me the whole day la! i kept hearing to it. it was usper nice. and if i am not wrong i actually can sing it. like what huishi said. it improved my chinese! hahaha!

hahaha. my darling's birthday is coming soon. thinking of where to go and celebrate her birthday! high tea buffet? at macdonals with ronald macdonals? man the damn ronals has to be paid $90 to come la. whats o cool about his damn red hair? haha. i am so evil! anyway, nine more days babe! =)

well today was okay la. woke up orettty lat. watched tv. then ate lunch. haha. the was mugging for my physics test on monday la. cause tml is laffy's birthday party at some pasiris chalet! haha. so must study la. i finished studying so i hope i do well. then i played with my bitch, FURBALL! haha. she doesn't act like a mum. so active and playing around. but i still love her la! her birthdays coming soon too! lol! =)

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2006-04-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

> more than words - Frankie J

its good friday today. 2000 years ago, the lord, jesus christ died for our sins today. every year we keep saying 2000 years. but none know the exect. well today grandpa passed away. so sad right? well i tried not to cry but yeah! he lived a good life. big house! big family! always happy! but still i wanna live like my grandpa JOSEPH!

MANAGER's report/-

today NAFC had a match at commonwealth field. i wasn't there due to the above reason. it rained cats dogs and monkeys today. but yet the team perservered on and played the game at last. they played against a strong team. first half many spirits were lost. but second half many brought up thier spirits and fought till the end. the opponent team won. but yet the experience was great! rememeber! as long as you learn from the game and you are able to raise you spirit man high no matter how, you are a victoriouse player! good job guys!

"failure is not a breakpoint or and obstacle...
..it is stepping stones to success!"
-NAFC-

huishi's haircut!

2006-04-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

> shan hu hai - Jay chou & Lara

today was super fun la! cause everything was super funny! especially my group's service learning project. we went to local. so if we show pictures nothing special. so we did videos of the houses we went to. the houses were learn @ fairfield! haha. the memeber are syakir, huishi, faris, vic, rumi and me (helped my rajesh!) after school huishi went to cut hair! haha

happy belated birthday elis! i enjoyed the bus journey yesterday to orchard! so many things can be done with sharing! thanks girl! appreciate what you done! i love you too! i love DEH! you guys are the best! i love my darling FENNY TOO! =)

elish introduced fried mars bar to me. so we ate it! s yum! huishi and geraldine got a new hair cut! lol. not bad la. huishi looks more pleasant and matured. she hate me to say pretty so i wont! then we went walking around far east.

all the pics!

this everyone looks nice in this pic!
and i like that song too! (hey you!)

as yes when theres cameras and mirrors
the end result will be this! - picture perfect!

we down to neoprint shop to take erm neoprints of cos! haha! twice! of which huishi and me concluded natalie has become so much prettier! then nat went to by he fave! churros! nat and elish left. hushi and i went to buy my mum stuff and had dinner at macDONALDS! then trained home! =)

poem

2006-04-12T20:30:00.000-07:00

> speed of sound - cold play

a leaf's impression;

i have no control over me
as i move with the wind and strength
so i've been pushed around?
i am a small portion of that big tree
as you can only find out at the endings
so i'm forgotten in the process?
i know i'm a substitude
as there are so many more leaves
so i'm replaceable?
i know i'm small
but i am used as a medium to pass life
to the big body
so i'm just been used?
i knowhave smooth texture
thats why i may be pucked out
so thats means i have no heart?
even the smallest living is God's
most delicate creation - if only we realise

SPORTS DAY! cum sentosa!

2006-04-11T23:28:00.000-07:00

> clocks - coldplay

saturday was sports day. not actually the kind of sports day i expected it to be. but yeah. overall my class got in second in sec 4/5 level. not bad aye? haha. well the basic sports day picture are my blog skins la. as you can actually see. the below pic is my 4x400m relay finals. jeremy passing it to me. in the heats we were the first with a timing of 4.02. but in finals we got 3rd. but its always better than nothing. thanks guys for running -peace

imspirations are there for a reason..
.........till then, that passion in my so succeed..
............................................................never ends..

fuck

2006-04-05T21:15:00.000-07:00

> pimp - 50 cent

damn the fucked up world. today was one of the worst effing day i have ever faced in my whole entire life. i mean obviously because of my natural attitude i tend to be suttle to many issues but yet i totally blew today. i know i am a bridge and i no matter what ii dont get angry but ain't i still human too? what am i a all you can get help from person and then leave? then what the fucking hell do you think of me? a fucked up ass face? fuck you! i mean really i am not talking to anyone direct here coase its a whole bunch i'm addressing. really? some ppl do take the extra effotr to please you and understand you so your day will be well and you have someone to go to in dullness. but in return? i mean i totally realised today life is just a bruch stick you know. really. you use it to grow your leave. and when they are useless you break it away! total reditocracy! chee bye! you know if one day i blust ah. it will not be sightly. so really. watch it!

sorry for the use of vulgarities! but i needed to express everything out!
yay! now i'm done! =)

that feeling

2006-03-29T21:40:00.000-08:00

> PCD - beep

met hushi and abel late today. haha. first lesson was boring. physics la. gosh i was utterly sleeping. but yeah i had fenny beside to cheer me! i love my darling sista fenny more many reasons! but sometimes she is super evil to me. but i am nice la. haha. i was totally worn out by PE. 5 rounds of 3oom with 4mins rest in each round. sound easy eh? think again. imagine having to do it within 50sec. gosh i was actually tearing at the end. chemistry was boring. they were doing NAFC jursey. wen hao said i was the manager, then jeremy say coach, then laffyette say designer. so many!. englsih was slack. i designed the NAFC flag quite cool but funny.

after school went holland BK study. i felt damn outkast today. dont know why. haha. me and elis were like saying the same things. lol la. hhahaha. idid my tamil work and slept la. was totally tired.

this combi camptured my eyes! -treasuredppl-

i really dunno why but i've been feeling this way for quite sometime. many issues compile in me and just conjust. i think i should back off. i mean if it means so much for me to leave then for all i care i leave. these days have been tough. finding the strength to move on in this great with with fucked up things.

llaa bye

2006-03-28T23:17:00.000-08:00

> frankieJ - how to deal

well today school was pretty abnormal. dont know why but yeah. found english quite fun. so odd of me la. but really the preparation for the composition was pretty fun. i'm doing split personality ANNIYAN! thats what i am writing about. not onion! haha it means stranger according to mum. chemistry was boring as usual. cant blame it la. during maths, ms ng was trying to make fun of the decorations of mr neo's classroom. but i have to agree with ms ng. the decorations were freaking irritating!

after school went to learning styles analysis make up lesson. it was with the freaking sec 1s. if you thought sec 4s were havoc. you got to try them. they are irritating. me fenny anf laffyette were so lost. but yeah we left half way! whee! later went down to queenstown stadium for training. trainign was fun but yet hard. my pantat pain la! well hope we win 8x100m. we've been training. so yeah. 4x400m? well the medal aint important, you gusy are. so do well for your events!

haha. is that picture combi above nice? brings back alot of memories for me la. totally alot. was relfecting about me and my friends. i missed so much of my past. the happy times we shared together. just wish everything will continue smoothly. onwards!

the counts

2006-03-25T23:55:00.000-08:00

ripped this off from someone's blog!

title: 7 ways to romance!
7 most romantic places for a date?
1) essential brew corner seat near the curtain!
2) esplanade
3) private swimming pool
4) ball room candle light dinner for 2
5) tcc (if we budget la)
6) bedroom?
7) you by my arms, down at the beach while the sun sets;

7 most romantic food?
1) chocolate coated strawbberries
2) chocolate coated marchmallos
3) smoothies
4) chocolate
5) honey delights
6) spenure` agula!
7) celebrity brownies with oozing hot chocolate

7 most romantic drinks
1) sex on the beach
2) champagn
3) coral beach
4) martinis
5) dance of tea
6) white wine
7) summer peach

7 people you would set a date for?
1) fenny!
2) huishi!
3) weijie!
4) carmelle
5) wenhao
6) natalie
7) stefanie

7 dates for them?
1) she's TAKEN!
2) zhen rong/terry
3) shall not spill it out eh!
4) she's TAKEN!
5) (1+2=3) that is a sum!
6) BB boy
7) too many to list!

7 colours or cloths that turn on a man?
1) red?
2) low neck?
3) white or tranparent?
4) mini skirts?
5) G string?
6) tight fits?
7) out of ideas

7 sexy brands?
1) quiksilver
2) ripcurl
3) volcom
4) gucci?
5) LV?
6) stussy!
7) NTUC!

7 people whom should do this?
1) fenny
2) seven
3) gwen mah man!
4) jeremy
5) laffyette
6) anyone bored?
7) you?

drama camp

2006-03-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

kellyclarkson > breakaway

came back form drama camp. it was quite fun though. but yes the usual feeling i dont want to return home. nothing usual i guess. but yes this time there were interesting things!

we did some usual ice breakers to bond better la and it was quite fun though. but yeah some had the bochap face. but all i can say is you rip what you sow!

in the early aftnoon we did canoeing in the pool la! was quite fun! but many didn't know how to canoe. so they keep bumping. so i kept rowing away la! man..

nat and me kept rafting but the others keep bumping! so the broke the raft!

the rafting up as a line! to form a circle! oh gosh we took damn long la!

then we had some ball game!

and finally at night we did reflections form the sky. was cool!

the whole camp was fun la. although i did hear some stuff and everything. here is something clear. i am not the one who place the wanting in me to lead. it was you. now if you think i push it too much, young man i got only one think to say, lead your drama well. but either then that yeah. you'll see the difference in me soon. you asked for it.

a good joke!

2006-03-14T19:00:00.000-08:00

heres something i ripped from natalie!

Here's a good one from Joe..

A little boy came down to breakfast. Since he lived on a farm, his mother asked if he had done his chores. 'Not yet,' said the little boy. His mother tells him he can't have any breakfast until he does his chores.

Well, he's a little pissed, so he goes to feed the chickens, and he kicks a chicken. He goes to feed the cows, and he kicks a cow. He goes to feed the pigs, and he kicks a pig.

He goes back in for breakfast and his mother gives him a bowl of dry cereal. 'How come I don't get any eggs and bacon? Why don't I have any milk in my cereal?' he asks.

'Well,' his mother says, 'I saw you kick a chicken, so you don't get any eggs. I saw you kick the pig, so you don't get any bacon, either. I also saw you kick the cow, so you aren't getting any milk this morning.'

Just about then, his father comes down for breakfast, and he kicks the cat as he's walking into the kitchen.

The little boy looks up at his mother with a smile, and says, 'Are you going to tell him, or should I?'

back from service learning

2006-03-11T21:49:00.000-08:00

"its a learning journey..
.....but one journey i'm going far from"

camp back from service learning. its the last day. didn't post anything about my days during the week. but now yes. haha. lame la! well made to friends this week. amanda and meng linn. haha. amanda just got closer to her la because she was my primary school class mate and meng linn got to know him. both of them are utterly funny and a good couple to i must say. haha. most of the time meng linn, amanda, huishi and me we went for breakfast and lunch and yesterday we went for a swim! woah! not bad ah! haha. first 3 days we were at lion befrienders. not bad la. mine and huishi's team combined. mainly all the NA together la. was quite fun. but yeah tiring of cause. haha. and shihan only came one day. as you should know the reason. he left school! but he was really was. "push the button!" haha. mainly things were great! haha.

the first day. outside the centre. this was our first group. mainly we were bullying huishis saying that she was short. haha. as you can see she is. but she still has a big heart! haha.

during the aftnoon. this was both teams la. although some were missing. haha. we wear actually going around door by door asking whether the particulars of them we had were right. we actually took this pic because of the ball syakir is sitting on. haha but yeah not realised!

day 2 morning was slack la. nothing much. as we still did the particulars thing. so yeah. but we had loads of fun even though we did not slack. and we talked and sand and played around! haha.

after lunch at commonwealth macDONALDs. me and shi and a little candid with Mr Ronald. but after the pic i jumped off. as his lap was freakishly hot! it was buring my ass! OUCH!

a group picture after the lunch and with the 4I guys- Fariq, Subra, Jeffrey joined us in the pic. amazingly most of the times 4G 4H and 4I worked together. it was fun and funny! haha.

and yes. where there is NA, there is always drama and mama. haha. a dramatic picture of NA although i hardly tried to figure out what we were doing or forming. but it was funny! just look at some of thier actions! haha.

i tell you. that bag was freaking heavy! after lunch we went house by house again to collect news papers and old cloths. and that uncle gave so much. me and shi were actually falling! haha.

yes and after service learning we chilled at vic's house for 3 days. haha. oh and that is me and shi standhing on chulien if you didn't realise. haha. she was totally screaming for her life. actually she was drooling on his bed! haha.

yeah the 3rd day was slac day for my group so no pictures. only day we slacked la. hahaha. service learning was fun. and the next 4 days went to jurong east stadium, south west CDC to pack 16 THOUSAND goodie packs! what the hell. but we managed at least 11 thousand if i am not wrong la! haha. but the whole experience was fun. thanks guys!

toot toot

2006-02-21T21:20:00.000-08:00

"sometimes in life...
.....the calmer method does do the job!"

met huishi as usual at 6am today. we both were so tired! weijie is back in action! whee! haha. today was student leader investiture. but not as grand as it used to be. then physics and social studies was okay. only that mrs chng got pissed off. i got 72/100 for my ss test. i deprove from 80/100 =(. english as usual BORING!. chem was slack and maths was fun! YAY! i just completed the longest day! whee! haha. went t-zone makan with fenny, huishi and e-lis. then zhao to art course. was quite fun la. the i met ms elaine lim on the way to locker. she saw my art and went "DIONEL! is that upper secondary art standard?" and i told her all we did today was learn how to paint a ball. and she went "okay!?! then there must be artistic reason for that!" haha. she was funny. today me and fenny broke up. sad lorh. but we patched up before she left! so lame! haha. went home with vic, nat and gerard. i pang seh huishi! sorry! now talking to her! toot toot la! kinda felt useless and hopeless just now. only shi knows. deepest apologies.

thats my screen!- did this new seven wall paper!
thats how it looks like. thanks guys for being special!
(click on picture to enlarge)

you'll never know the importance of his presence till one day he leaves. by then regreting or a restart button is no option. if only you don't blind your eyes with negativity..

// i always wanted to be there for you
wanted to be you cusion when you turn dull
but today i fade away as the useless one - period //

wow so long later ah

2006-02-20T20:50:00.000-08:00

"might be a the sweetest strawberry..
..but you're nothing if your insight is bitter.."

what a day? woke up thinking not to go school. but still went. thinking god had something special for me today. lessons were okay la. but english as usual la. but we had group work. agony aunt! more like aunty jeremy ah! haha. phyisics was okay. but mainly was doing the sports day stuff. hehe. i want to win medals. then art. wah. 5 periods can vomit blood seh! haha. but i did paint something damn nice. mdm lim said it was nice la. so yeah. life skills super boring even before it started. but nathaniel and de hua keep farting! damn funny! went tamil class. LATE! but i finish all my work. den rushed down to meet huishi at jp for dinner. then crapped around at TOYS 'R' US! haha. then she sent me off. now talking to her. toot toot! i felt so gay today. cant say why. only shi knows! haha. shh!!

SEVEN! my true friends. yeah i know who to turn to
when i need help and stuff. thanks guys! love <3
(not in picture: melle and steff)

what if friendship when you just wear a mask on to no be the hated one? friendship is hard to gain and you're just gonna lose he's if you continue- dude don't worry, we're by your side..

// love does not need to be by your side,
its all about freedom as you get it with no price,
so ran, be free, and show of your gracefull self //

boring day

2006-01-28T23:58:00.000-08:00

"they say diamonds are forever...
..........but are we eternaly forever?"

today was utterly BORING! yea truely damn boring. i rested till i didn't wanna rest anymore. so you can actually imagine how much of resting occured today huh! haha. spent most of the time with furball. her due date is nearing. shes gonna be a mother soon. haha. been reflecting about alot of stuff. aspecially of the battle that i'm fighting through now. i just don't know where i belong. it i tougher now then before. just got to fight through. watched godzilla, anger management and a tamil movie (kakker kakker). tueday going out with my best friends- natalie, weijie, huishi, steff and maybe melle. haha. its going to be fun. tml reunion dinner. imagine an indian needing to go for reunion dinner on CNY. yes chinese relatives. my birthday and huishi;s birthday coming. and why arent we looking forward to it? but i will celebrate yours huishi! so dun worry! haha. its 11.50pm now. cant sleep. bringing furbal out for a walk soon. nites guys!

updates

Nel & fenny(my best friend!)
during natalies birthday at swensons

NATALIE's birthday!
the whole group. (190905)

Sec 4G CYN celebration
all my classmates in ethnic costumes.

Sec 4G CNY celebrations
the havoc class + teacher! (ms lim)

these days are the toughest days. finding where i belong. searching for a home ground. are you the shelter? or am i just facing da javu? searching for that one answer; as the battle of friendship strives on. period-

// why are you in my memory?
but in reality your absence is present.
is it fated to be? is it written? or is it a mystery? //

cny celebrations

2006-01-27T23:55:00.000-08:00

"to you like you..
...makes me wonder what i am"

today went to school like darn early and like it was CNY celebration or more like enthic celebration. 4G and 4H tied up the victory of the tradional costume. then we decorated the front of the classroom little india style! haha. we were to go sentosa but canceled. went home to change. then met weijie and huishi. was waiting for steff who took a damn long time. went to cine cafe cartel had lunch. met steff and melle. natalie pangseh! haha. den went shopping for jie's belt. then later for huishi's top. half way for HER's special dress. den send melle home. her cab was damn long. den shi, jie and me went starbucks and chill. told jie some insights of me. didn't know he was unaware of the things. went wheelocks. trained home with shi. we shared some issues. oh she named me feathy! so lame. now its likes= weijie-pokey, huishi-broomy, me-feathy. haha

updates

shijienel. at some vedio shop @ wheelocks
(will update more pic next time)

why the of loneliness and the tears? why has the darkness seem to have settled down. is it me? or is it what i have that is been used. am i there for that? fighting through the battle of friendship. period-

// some say fated to be, as
you are like (speak-of-the-devil)
appearing before me. only time can tell //

blog after so long!

2006-01-25T22:55:00.000-08:00

"why do i love you and you?
.....when i am in love with you?"

these are the 2 crumplers i wanna buy! haha. i don't know why but i think i should take this as the other 2 are just too common. (greyblue) which one shall i get? huh? some say red some say green. i am clueless. and i updated my WISHLIST! and my birthdays coming! hints? haha. guess not! 16 more days to my brithday and my ipod nano! haha. today school was okay la. but english i was falling asleep. as usual! don't know why but english is not happening any more. tml going shopping with natalie, weijie, huishi, stef, melle. fridays celebration like my class quite enthu ah! haha. tml got ss and maths tests. ~~too much studying~~! poof! going to sleep soon. cya

crumplers bought

natalie's crumpler weijie's crumpler jeremy's crumpler

// i really love you
if only you realise //

lois birthday

2006-01-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

"time is precious and its getting away..
and i've been waiting for you all of my life"

hey all. whee. i am so heavenly hyper today. oh yes i made a new year resolution. no more vulgarities. now i am like saying HEAVENLY all the time. sound crappy. but helps. anyway. it was a rainy day too. ms lim's physics lesson was only interesting. the rest was cocky. ran 1.2km for PE. i felt like i just finish cross country. haha. oh yes. speaking about cross country. me and jeremy are joining the singhkleh club. haha. run fast in the begining and then slow down all the way. haha. but we changed it abit. let everyone run. then we walk and enjoy the view. then when people slow down we make fun of them and run past! haha. whee! today was lois birthday adn i was a nice friend a got her something. 'i dont know why but you just piss me off damn badly sometimes'. well abels's birthday coming. should get him a nice shirt. hope things will fall well for me too. i am a part too. anyway going to study now! buaiz!

// i just so love you!
love you till the very ends!
love you more and more to no where!
love love //

hari raya holiday

2006-01-10T22:40:00.000-08:00

"what goes around comes around..
.....what goes up, must come down"-karma

HAPPY HARI RAYA all! haha. hope you guys had a good day. unlike me. i had to study. haha. but i got to watch tv at night. so ain't that bad. saw some madagascar video in natalie's blog. whee. haha. got the chance to tag some of my lost friends. haha. had little chat with ms tay my old form teacher. shes like so care free now. and shes changed. haha. brought fur ball out for a walk. she did not ran around. (shes pregnant) haha. it was cold. so she just cuddled around me and talked- meow. haha. was a boring day though. tml is lois birthday. i be a good friend and bought her something. haha. natalie's birthday coming soon. abel's rajesh's and darren's too. haha. too many gifts. so little time.

// i will hold on till god leads me where
as iplaced you in gods hands and told him
lead. for all i know- i shall delight in the lord //

no school for me

2006-01-09T23:45:00.000-08:00

"i'm learning to fall..
..With no safety net to cushion the blow"

today was BORING! i didn't go to school. i went to see the docter. he gave some wierd chocolate alike thing which made the toilet my second room. oh gawd. whee. nat got into art. haha. i miss school and class just being absent one day. heh. would i be able to join PA? or should i? haha. its been in my mind a while. hehe. something worng with huishi. she seems too MATURED!. haha.

// i found you finger prints
on a glass of wine, do you know
you're leaving them, all over this
heart of mine? //

so long no blog

2006-01-08T22:01:00.000-08:00

"maybe not today, maybe not today..
...someday soon you'll be all right.."

woah first week of school ended with out me even thinking. many said it went slow. but i felt it was reasonable. the usual me! tuesday was boring. talks after talks. BORE! wednesday and thursday was smooth. lessons started. and i started my revision. got so much to catch up. and i am a slow learner but a willing one. gonna see teachers after school for remidials. haha. friday was slack. but i did a test on that day. hope i scored well. i did try my best. after school got orientation booth. abit damn boring. night i helped out in PA. i think i wanna join PA. but don't think i will be invited. haha. specific someone![gwen remember?]hahaha. then wen home with meng and shi. today church. someone gave me a word saying "this year you will see gods wonders. this year you will have a great year and you shall delight in the lord."

why do i feel R and me face the same things. but R is now getting healed. i feel so uncetrain to. as HER <3 isent stable. i rather you be happy and smile. i don't want to be a pain to you. i will be by your side. but things shall continue only when you are ready.

BORED

2005-12-29T01:56:00.000-08:00

i'm so freaking BORED..

..i cant sleep..

..and i miss her!

snapshots!

sher.banana.chrys.yiping.sammi.sam.renee.

joyce & me @ tcc during christmas eve.

me with sammi's levis hand bag.

same brand as my tee. (outside SP)

blogging thru

2005-12-28T22:45:00.000-08:00

"it took a route of 54 days for me..
... how long is it going to take for you?"

"this is the last god damn freaking STRAW!
and for the record! the ain't anymore straws!
i gone through a marothorn of parties over
parties of which i people i don't know. people
who talk weirdly and sacrificing my time with
my friends. enough is enough. i am sick of
the gawd damn tuxedos! the alcohol! and not
having time to spent with my friends! i'm OUT!"
ok that was a little drama i had with my parents.
i was so sick and tired. today i backed off an outing
with my weijie and wenhao. and i owe jie a gift.
i am so not excited about new year's parties.
get over and done with. PERIOD.

babe; i missed you so much. it is so hurtful not
to have the privilege to spend christmas with
you. whats joy with you not around it. won't
you every see. that its not the season or the joy.
its your love all that i want. and i ask for nothing more.

2005-12-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

"when you thought you moved on..
..... god gave you another way.."

merry christmas all
for christmas day till now i had parties
over parties over parties. non stop action
man! started off with a martini party. i
was so damn hell drunk. I had sex on the
beach then i had a dinner hang over. turkey
and ham. woah. so much food. so heavenly.
i had liquors like chivas and bombay something.
den at midnight went for this midnight ball
dance party. danced and drank wine after
wine. and i told some truth. only renee knows.
so shh! came back 6 am in morning. then
10 am at a tea party. so glam. then in the
evening had a champaign party where everyone
and every thing was so go damn white! i was
drunk again! abit this time la. cause champaign
nothing much mah. now i survived 5 parties.
2 more to go tml. till then i have to get some rest.

R found a new guy J.
finally. i falt so happy for her. hop they will
end up together and happy! they are so cute!

christmas shopping

2005-12-23T23:05:00.000-08:00

"the life you get..
....sometimes ain't that bad!"

well went shopping with mah mother. and
being evil my fone was silent and i never
answer weijie's call! SORRY AGAIN! haha.
well i clear almost all i want. nothing much
to post. so heres what i bought.

MINE!
topman-
maroon stripped shirt`$98
black zig zag shirt`$92
straight cut pants`$85
tilted hat`$56
belt`$45
ZARA-
black and white shirt`$99
long stripe pents`$80
leather jacket`$101
Levis-
jeans (2pairs)`$65 each
t-shirt`$54
Men or Boy?-
leather shoe`$59
total spediture: $899

yups thats my christmas shopping. haha.
but still left 2 more i guess. ipod nano and
boardshorts. mums getting the ipod. so thats
out of the way. still left one. haha. anyway
i owe weijie $50 for his crumpler. dunnoe
whether i will not broke by then. hope not!
hahaha. anyway. the real christmas wish like
i said is to see her smile and be happy every
day of her life. thats all. =) smiles.

long time no blog.

2005-12-22T23:28:00.000-08:00

"courage is not the absence of fear,
.....................but the presence of faith"

well had a nasty day. but yet i think i
don't really fall off so easily. unlike the
song - "i bruise easily" i put up the
christmas tree today. although i was
utterly unwilling. i suddenly missed
council. and i missed her so much. wanna
spend chirstmas with her. haha. well i
gotta go shopping soon. for marmee's
present. her me to you bear. haha. gifts
for mp4. and not forgeting something
for natalie weijie fenny jeremy wen hao
(superman belt). these guys are special.
i realy wanna spend christmas on god's lap.
just by his side. singing happy birthday.
but it can only be a wish. nothing more.
all i want for christmas is to see her smile
her day and be happy. back to work now. =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

what a bad day?

2005-12-18T23:24:00.000-08:00

"when god closes a door..
.....he will alwyas open a window"

today was like KARABASAI!
i was like so hyper to go to church
and worship. and out of the blues
the car like broke down. oh gawd!
why of all days and time it must
break down then. and worst in the
middle of no where. i was so dissapointed.
waited like 1 damn hour for the machanic.
and we missed church. problem
came out to be that dad did not
service the car for quite long. so it
was dads fault abit. but he try to
make it up to us by bringing us to
swensons. but the food was okay.
appriciated. at the end it was still
a normal day. AHEM!

*now comferencing with meng & shi.

city harvest church [candle light service]

2005-12-17T22:28:00.000-08:00

"you are the light of your life"

went to city harvest today for service

and i must tell you that i felt so bless

being present there at that moment.

from the worship to the praise. stage

arrangments and the message. i was

exactly thrilled and i just fell in deep

worship. AMEN. today was the candle

light service. and i took back this line

right above. we are all god's little stars

on the earth. truely i had a great time.

ate dinner at orange julius and trained

back home. planning to go next week.

tommorrow got church. another day to
praise god. haha. and youth service in
now changed to sundays. so i can make
it. haha. yay! looking forward to mp4's
outing at the beach with the surprice.

new blog

2005-12-17T13:54:00.000-08:00

"no mater where i go..
...i still come back to you"

its a new layout for me by my
SUPER NATURAL COUSIN!
hope this will last and not fade.

going to church now to bring the
youths over to city harvest for
some fellowship or service as
what my pastor said. will be back
to share more about what happened
there. SHALOM!

school is about to re open in 2 weeks
time and i am soo happy because
i am soo stucked her at home. PERIOD.

the life..

2005-11-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

life, sometimes so wearying
is worth its weight in gold
the experience of traveling
appears the way of old
beyond our 'living memory'A softly spoken prayer:
"It's the journey that's important, Not the getting there!"
.
in and out and up and down
life goes meandering aimlessly
or its just the way that
leads us where we need to be
and being just us
we often question and compare....
"Is the journey so important Or the getting there?"
.
and this has always been
that very question pondered over ages
by the simplicity of man and his way
to the wise and matured ones
how sweet then, quietly knowing
reaching destination fair:
"It's the journey that's important, Not the getting there!"
.
many times in life
the journey is always the light house
but how much you wanna use it
lies totally on ur hands
make ur journey possible as it is important!
.
* a little gratitude to my MARMEE! for what she has thought me over the days the directed the show. although it might not be literally thought to me but she did say then through her bunched up words! thanks renee!

blah blah

2005-11-14T21:59:00.000-08:00

although there is no string

although there ain't any visual sight

although the atmosphere is normal

although the movement is invisible

that little feeling of yours keeps me on

as i dont' know what the future holds

and never would want to knnow

just as long as your're by my side

that comfort is everlasting...

today ah. haha. i woke up early but left the house late. then on the way natalie call me say must go for that P.O.E.M for the top personnels. then rushed down and took a cab over. the course was funny. but yet at time it was ZZzzz.. haha. then ms tan enter LT stare at me say what time i come. den by the time i end ym sentence, she say meet me after this. haha. thought she angry. then later she laugh and joke with me. i tell you ah. teachers are scary. got chossen to be in the commitee. abit wierd. haha. heres a little secret. it was someone else who brought the subjuect up about the CCA exchange, but jie got the role at last. haha. tml got to attend course again. then wen DRAMA. haha. i tell you ah. my costume is so irritating. i have to pull it up and walk where ever i go. karabasai ah! then mr Low made and jaime do some wierd position for photo taking. haha like some bollywood shooting ah! hahaha. gave the gifts the her. den came home. haha.

PHOTOS!

totally CANDID! ahh! what a nice senery!

boo ya! dione.natalie.fenny

wth! how come she gets chocolate! NO FAIR!

hariraya!

2005-11-03T00:05:00.000-08:00

"i love you more then yesterday..
....................less then tommorow..."
.
HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI!
festival greetings to all my
muslim readers! hope you
have a fantastic festival and
have a cheery and bright day!
same those nasi lamaks yeah!
.
HER<3
[someonemetTAUFIKyesterday]
you make me smile whenever
i see you, you make me tear
your absense in near, i wonder
when will i be next to you,
standing confidently to face the
obstacles life has placed upon me..

deepavali!

2005-11-02T00:40:00.000-08:00

"the happiest day of my life..
.......is being with you everyday.."
.
HAPPY DEEPAVALI!
haha. yo all hindhu friends
and readers! just wanna
wish you a great DIWAILI!
haha. thats how they spell in
india. lol. cool!. may your
house family be lighted up
with colourful and bright
oil lamps! have fun!
.
HER<3
EPOH UOY DAH NUF YADOT!
[cycling]- lol
the days of my life,
what a nice moment never to
forget, witnessing the dark
and bright sides together with
one aim in mind, you... =)

the day! i told her!

2005-10-31T22:17:00.000-08:00

"the venture in life never ends...
..as the end of venturing is never near"
.
OBS-
it was damn helluva fun la
i totally enjoyed my self
from the rock climbing to
the sea expedition. hahaha.
it was damn bloody hell cool!
learnt alot from it and it time
to apply it to life baby! haha.
.
DRAMA-
well the atmosphere surely isen't
fine as many things are so not
balanced. i tried to conduct a
practice to day with natalie. but
they didn't put in their best which
in others words meant the practice
went staight down to drain but still
go some pointers in their airy heads!
hahaha i am evil! just hope you guys
can pull it off together! JIA YOU!
.
HER <3
" and now i am speechless! WOW!"
haha. thats totally my reaction now.
well guess things are exposed but
even though i hope things can flow
well between us as i know it can
and now all lie on your hands.. =)

short one!

2005-10-06T20:57:00.000-07:00

"the spenditure of life is short..

....therfore treasure it while living"

to all my dear readers, my life

has sentenced upon exams and

mugging which makes me spend

lesser time with you all.. but dun

worry.. as this only makes me

stronger and write more!.. cya!

HER<3

the sand and water are getting

closer, blending to form a

solution.. which is not visable

now.. but when the rite time

comes.. it will be.. my love for

you endures forever...

misplacement

2005-09-14T22:04:00.000-07:00

"misplacement is just a begining"
......the right match is yet to come"
.
in life not many of us attain
what we wish or want to.
we get misplaced to led to a
very different route in which
this pic came to mind..

NATALINA & ME
and boy do we get misplaced
she always get raped in her roles
in drama, and i am always in a
very wierd role and once my role
hade to rape her role. -metephor-
.

as days goes by, ppl

get to know about me

and you, now i think

know you about it, but

you are just being silent

and oblivious to it, how

i wish things run smooth

for us, how i wonder

this will not be a dream..

school reopen

2005-09-12T21:07:00.000-07:00

"to lead a life of legacy..
........or to legacise a life to lead.."
.
SCHOOL REOPEN.
boy it was a whopsy day. not really
a day that i will look forward to but
i did learn stuff! like the 'work
experience' thing! too bad i cant
work. i have one liao! thinking of
work.. look at this..

TIME TO WORK OUT! OBS!
hahahaha.. boy look at us! eash
of them look soo wierd dooing it!
nat looks like"whee! i'm flying!"
sammi is like"oh god why is he
holding me?" joyce is like omg
"haiyya! i'll kick u right into your
face!" and fenny!"soo paiseh!
aiyo!"haha! so lame la! haha!
.
.
her<3
how i wish the time is right
that i can tell you what i want
to, how i wish that you will be
near, side by side by my every
move, how i wish i won't have
to wait long and would see the
bright light soon, how i wish all
this could come to reality!
how i wish...

a post after the neew skin..

2005-09-10T23:56:00.000-07:00

" the only gold you hold
.........................is your life"

thinking about my future..
what will i do in years to come?
take over my dads business?
continue on my dream to act?
well out of the blues nick came in mind!

nick and me!
both of us have the same dreams!

DRAMA!a wild journey!

but the ends are rewarding!

i have fallen many times on this,

broken hard deeply because of

this, yet if i'm returning to back,

there must be something that i

believe in you. you have been a

very silent friend of mine, not an

out spoken one. but even though

you still captured me. not by ur

beauty, not by your eligance, but

by the nature of you. you are one

factor no 1 should miss out in life!

drama session!

2005-09-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY-
today go DRAMA! soo fun!
runs after runs! renee style! boy..
haha.. learnt a few things though..
and took helluva pictures..
and they look damn wierd!
hahaha...
.

NATALIE, PEISHING & ME!
while renee was lecturing russel!
.

sammi, nathaniel, ME, peishing- formal!
.

THE SPASTICS!- act cute time! =)
.

DIONEL: see what see? got problem ah?
NICK: huh? see what? i cant see anything!
.

i did eat my LUNCH! i was just bored!
.

OMG! i took a pic with the DANCING QUEEN!
.
and what a day it was. really hope the play is not
a RIP OFF! lol. guys, you will face many bad
comments, you will face down falls, you will face
those damn hell OBSTACLES. but the true hero
holds on till the end and breaks through all!
ALL THE BEST!
.
.

2005-08-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY-
was da BOMM!
wen swensons with natalie ame and hansen!
ate like pigs and vomited! so damn hell fun!
played squash and pool at joyce house!
hahaha.
.
SUNDAY-
today ah.. hmmm..
not really a bad day..
never go chuch so sad! SORRY god!
slept damn hell long like a pig!
lol. i am one! hehe.
slacked the whole day.. piggy mee!
.
gonna copy yen and post pictures! lol!
first one is with her! haha!

yen and me! at school! she poped out of the blues!
.

jeremy.wenhao.erin.natalie.amelia.weijie.me! ~ erin's birthday!
.

HANTAM BOLA!- wenhao on bed!
we were all on an aim to do something!
.

NAH! finally! our aim is been reached!
revealing wenhao's undies! HOTMAROON seh!
.

in the car! weijie.wenhao.1/4 jeremy.natalie.
amelia.me! going home!
.
well talking to jaime now about he lil trip out
with someone! man she does have a mess on her
back! lol! anyway going to meet my fren now!
.
.

beauty of life

2005-08-20T22:50:00.000-07:00

in the morden days of art

beauty has fall upon

the term of divine

and never be brought

out to the real stand...

beauty of life

the most glorious

yet the hell breaker

it makes the worst curry

the tasteless char quay tiao

the horibble mee rabus

yet adding that drop of love

which just makes it delicious

but why is beauty so difficult?

a rising question from many

beauty is a dive art that

is only to be attained by the worthy

but the beauty of life

is to fight through the rights

to sunshine and rain

and not losing the beauty

to the weather...

i wonder

2005-08-17T23:06:00.001-07:00

sometimes in life i wonder,
why do we want to achieve so much?
why do we want to succeed?
why do we even care?
when the person you want to show it to,
doesn't care
.
sometimes in life i wonder,
why do we try soo hard?
why do we give it our best?
why do we go to a wildest extend?
when someone else gets
the honour you are to attain
.
sometimes in life i wonder,
whats the use to go on?
why take the step to compete?
when we know someone else will
attain the win even though
.
in life, not many will attain victory easily
but to face all these questions and to continue
will make you rise up above all kings and
kingdoms where you undertsand the truth of
victory and lead the role of wise succeeder..

reality

2005-08-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

everyday you come across
a new face
a new challenge
a new aim
which just compresses you
to fulfill them to the core
through that journey
you face the different
weathers of life
all blending in
to make you weaker
but as you grow and face
this time by time
the strength within pulls you up
you learn the formular
to cure your wounds
all that is left
is to pick up the memories
and carry on
as the journey gets heavier
you become stronger..

harmony

2005-07-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

god gave us colours
to beautify and differenciate

but man used it in vain

war arose between

what started out of colours

became enemy of powers

if only we accept the difference

and untie the curse

the colours will blend

then happiness will arise

friendship

2005-07-23T01:34:00.000-07:00

they say the key to success
is a friend in hand;
not many believe it, not many see it
as friendship is always directed
to a one way point in life
but many see the difference
but some don't
why?
ever asked him that?
we want friends, we want company
but the true friendship is
HEARTSHIP & HARDSHIP
the term might not settle down,
but the the believe will!
so believe!
.

life

2005-07-12T20:47:00.000-07:00

many times in life you fail
stones fall upon you
to make you fall deeper
just fight through it!
.
curse is just a word
but it hurts more than anything
when you feel its fucked up
just fight through it!
.
love is like a window
it opens and closes
but when it closes just fight through it!
.
life is a bitch
just filled with expectations
even when it chokes you
just fight through it!
as the true hero fights till death!

the important journey

2005-07-11T23:46:00.000-07:00

Life, sometimes so wearying
Is worth its weight in gold
The experience of traveling
Lends a wisdom that is old
Beyond our 'living memory'
A softly spoken prayer:
"It's the journey that's important, Not the getting there!"
.
Ins and outs and ups and downs
Life's road meanders aimlessly?
Or so it seems, but somehow
Leads us where we need to be,
And being simply human
We oft question and compare.... "
Is the journey so important Or the getting there?"
.
And thus it's always been
That question pondered down the ages
By simple men with simple ways
To wise and ancient sages....
How sweet then, quietly knowing Reaching destination fair:
"It's the journey that's important, Not the getting there!"
.
Many times in life
The journey is always the light house
but how much u wanna use it
Lies totally on ur hands
Make ur journey possible as it is important!

2005-07-11T07:04:00.000-07:00

HI DIONEL!
its me.
this skin rawks.

cause CREDITS go to ME! (:
YES ME.
the one and only.

im sure u`re gonna delete this.
by all means.
IM JUST BORED.

toodles poodles,
mr noodles.

>SARAH.

daily life 1

2005-07-10T17:10:00.000-07:00

woah.. am just soo proud of my mp4 memebers!
all of them have grown!
now they are leaders of a big team!
cool eh! damn cool lar! =)

rachel meng: chior conductor

dionel desuzer: blank!! =)

goh huishi: girls brigade

lanz toh: boys brigade [top 4]

haha.
"all this just proves that a new born
has yet to become a leader till he is one..
once he is; you will never believe it.."

a moment like this

2005-07-06T21:41:00.000-07:00

what if i told you

it was all meant to be

would you believe me

would you remember me...

its almost that feeling

were're never fooled

so tell me that you'd

don't think i'm crazy

when i tell you love

has come here in our arm

a moment like this

some people wait a life time

for a moment like this

some people sense forever

for that on special kiss

i cant believe this is happening to me

some people wait a life time

for a moment like this...

everything changes

but beauty remains

some things so tender

i cant explain

well i may be dreaming

but till i awake

help me make this dream last for ever

and i'll cherish all the love you share...

untitled

2005-07-05T20:58:00.000-07:00

i open my eyes

i tried to see but i'm blinded

by the white lies...

i cant remember how

i cant remember why?

i'm lying here tonight

and i cant stand the pain

and i cant make it go away

now i cant stand the pain...

how could this happen to me?

i've made my mistakes

got no where to run

the night goes on

as i'm fading away

i'm sick of this life

i just want to scream..

how could this happen to me?

everybodies screaming

i tired to make it sound

but no one hears me

i'm slipping off the edge

i'm hanging by your thread

i wanna start this over again..

so i tried to hold

onto a time where nothing matters

and i cant explain what happen

and i cant erase the things i've done

no i cant..

my endless pain

2005-06-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

watch as this tear falls

into life's empty spaces

can you see the sparkle as it catches the light

that sparkle once was happiness

now its no longer

as it falls watch its change

from brightness to dullness

the change is wide

there it goes alone

it continues to fall

it takes the emotion

the emotion of all

can you hear it?

a waterfall has broken free

flowing non stop

releasing the pain

here comes the force

between the eye

a wall of heavy water

its time to cry

a shudder a scream

darkness covers your soul

the darkness of the night has taken its toll....

descriptions of my lost cat

2005-06-10T22:55:00.000-07:00

ennakkum oru puunai undhu.
-jaime's line
ohh.. yen puunai siriyathu.
-jaime's line
un puunai "meow meow", yen puunai "miu miu"
-jaime's line
yen puunai karunbhu niram.
-jaime's line
ennudaiya puunaiyin vaalum siriyathu.
-jaime's line
romba azaghu! (u can nva pronounce this!)
-jaime's line
en puunaiyum en pillaigelaall virettappattedhu!
romba ketavergal! romba!
.

.
* gosh! piece of advice! dun say it in public!
i've warned you..

pissed off

2005-06-08T22:40:00.000-07:00

I'm pissed off about GST (swensons!)

and having to pee (2am)

in the middle of the night.

Being a bachelor (hen mei li ah!)

who's hair has over grown

for a bloody long time

It's a crime. I've gotta say

about the day she went away.

Yes, I'm pissed off'

cause she took the cat

and the neighbour's husband too!

But I've got my life back

and am happy to scoff

that I'm no longer pissed off

Except about the GST

and having to pee

in the middle of the night.

you pain me more than any other..

2005-05-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

i was torn

i was broken

i was demolished within

but you rose up

you came with friendship

which soon became stronger

soon, you became my trusted one

many times

we faced ~~hell and shit~~ together

with the other 2

we had fun with the rising sun

we reflected under the moonlight

now, you face darkness

darkness which seems to involve me

but you never clearify

making me ponder

what did i do?

why did u leave me aside? why?

questions pop out of me; with no answer in return

life made me face the meanest pain

but you hold the highest weight

as..

you pain me more than any other...

question and answer

2005-05-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

not in the mood?

high 5ive

too much expectations?

i'm choking here

wondering why life sucks?

if anyone knew that? life will be out of business!

wondering when will ur burderns end?

only when u know how to face them.

thinking of how lame i am?

oh boy u are soo dead!

how dead you are?

wanna try?

the 2nd chance in life is the hardest

2005-05-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

in life
you are given a time
a time to prove your worth
whether in any state
you are given that one chance in life
.
many take the opportunity
as many don't get it all the time
but some just leave it
some just use it in vain
defeatng the purpose of
the one chance in life
.
now you pay the consequence
its the painful one
but its the choice you took first
now you face hardship
your doings change the atmosphere
around you and others
your real challenge now
is to face all this
and gain the trust
you destroyed in many and
attain the 2nd chance
which is the hardest amongst all

oh OBBD

2005-05-09T03:28:00.000-07:00

oh OBBD [ outward bound brunei darruselam]

your outer look

made me image you

in a negative manner

when i got closer to you

it made me image you

more nagatively

oh OBBD

you gave me the hell

both in physical and emotional

you dig deeply in me

and took out all i had

leaving me alone

to wonder why? why? why?

oh OBBD

it was like how a baby grows

now you made me into a man

someone who know more

someone who can enrich

into a different level

you made a difference in me

and i still wounder why?

oh OBBD

now when i left you

i settle upon a period of saddness

where i feel a sense of missing

a sense that something has left in me

and had made a big impact in me

before leaving

now; i sit upon a time of reflection

thinking about why you came

into my life...